malam minggu saya...

bila malam minggu . saya susah hendak tidur. tapi sejak akhir-akhir ini . hari-hari saya susah nak tidur.

hari-hari saya berfikir . pasal ekonomi hari-hari . hari ini saya ada di sini . hari esok saya tak pasti.

hari-hari saya rasa risau . fikir hari-hari yang saya mungkin kena pergi . rakan-rakan ramai yang sudah kembali . saya di sini masih ternanti-nanti.

bila saya risau begini . mama saya pesan ‘don’t worry, be happy’ . nanti rambut cepat beruban . lagi susah hati . kan?

bila saya datang sini . saya rasa paling ‘happy’ . mama saya juga 'happy' . ini mimpi saya sejak muda-muda lagi . mahu jalan sana sini . mahu belajar tinggi-tinggi . mahu buat itu ini . semua dengan duit sendiri.

kalau saya kena pergi . semua mimpi tinggal mimpi . tapi mama pesan pada saya . mimpi boleh dikejar di mana-mana . tidak perlu fikir hanya Malaysia . doa mama dengan anaknya. kena berani kuatkan hati .

hendak pergi memang di hati . terlepas peluang takutkan rugi . tapi . bila tinggalkan semua di sini . mungkin tidak pulang kembali. mungkin juga tidak berjumpa lagi. hati saya sedih sekali.

selamat malam naz…

A fine fine line...

I had the chance to participate in a full dressed rehearsel of Cinderella Musical at Gaeity's today; thanks to a good friend @ housemate who thoughtfully booked two free tickets for this ocassion. I am not really a big fan of 'kids' musical though but for an old time's sake, it was enjoyable. We had the chance to make ourselves comfortable at the Parterre section, also one of the more expensive seats in Gaiety as i know. The show started with the appearance of the fairy god-mother; whom i thinked lacking of 'motherly' chemistry with the young audiences. Cinderella was expectedly a beautiful face and the Prince Charming reminded me of Brian, from Westlife. My favourite characters were the 2 step-sisters; mean, fat and funny! The climax of the show (for not-so-young faces like us), was when Button (Cinderalla's best friend) sang a song from Avenue Q musical broadway originated from the State. As for the overall show, i will rate 2.5 out of 5. It wasn't really that bad though but i still thinked the show lacked of some 'magic' touch despite of the extravagant sets and casts. The most enjoyable so far, personally when it comes to musical pantomin would be Beauty and the Beast, watched last year.

Nevertheless, take five to learn about "It's a fine fine line...."

(From the Broadway musicale Avenue Q)

There's a fine, fine line
between a lover, and a friend.
There's a fine, fine line
between reality, and pretend;
And you never know 'til you reach the top
if it was worth the uphill climb.
There's a fine, fine line
between love, and a waste of time

There's a fine, fine line
between a fairy tale, and a lie.
And there's a fine, fine line
between "you're wonderful" and "goodbye".
I guess if someone doesn't love you back
it isn't such a crime
But there's a fine, fine line
between love, and a waste of your time

And I don't have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don't think that you even know what you're looking for.
For my own sanity I've got to close the door
And walk away...
Oh...

There's a fine, fine line
between together, and not.
And there's a fine, fine line
between what you wanted, and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want
while you're still in your prime.
There's a fine, fine line
between love, and a waste of time.

Holiday season...

"Never shall I forget
the days I spent with you
Continue to be my friend
as you will always find me yours."

-Ludwig van Beethoven-

Happy holidays kids!

Over stated....

One of the things, which I said too often in the past few days…

Scene 1

A telephone conversation with a Contractor in trying to get an urgent quotation
Contractor : Listen Naz, are you staying late tonight?
Me : Hmm…,Barry can you try to send over those stuffs by 5.30 pm?
Contractor : Naz…if it’s going to make you happy…I’m happy. I'm giving you a special price.
Me : Hahaha…you’re a good man Barry..thanks!

Scene 2

A telephone conversation with a Contractor (again) in trying to confirm a tender price
Me : Eugene, I need you to confirm the tender I emailed to you..
Contractor : Naz, is it ok with the hospital if it’s 50k?
Me : Eugene, if it’s less then it’s a saving but if it’s over, we bust!
Contractor : Oh ok, then it’s fine with me
Me : You happy Eugene?
Contractor : I’m happy when you’re happy Naz..
Me : Hahaha!
Contractor : If you need anything, please call me ok?
Me : Yes Eugene, I will c a l l y ou i f i n e e d a n y t h i n g..(say each word one by one)
Contractor and me *seconds of silent moment*
Contractor and me *both laughing softly*
Contractor : You have a great weekend Naz
Me : Thanks Eugene…take care…good luck ok!



Scene 3

A conversation between an employer and her most dreaded big boss after she managed to confirm the tender price
Me : Neil, Eugene confirmed the price
Director : Excellent! 2 for us today; David’s final account and your X-
Ray
Me *half way leaving the boss’s desk; stopped and turned*
Me : Neil…you happy?
Director : Yep…(without even looking)
Me *walked straight to my desk*
Me : Hahaha…I just can’t believed I just said that to him!!! *talking to herself*

Scene 4

A short conversation between myself, an associate and an architect
Associate : *looking at the architect* Send us all those stuffs today and we'll review the cost plan
Architect : Sure, we'll try to get them out by today
Associate : *turned to me* You happy Naz?
Me : *wasn't expecting the question* Err..yeah happy..*grins*
Architect : No, it's happier!
All : Laughing out loud!

Scene 5

A quick text from a little sister to me
Kid : We're home! Thanx yar 4 d play n hot choc =)
Me : U happy?
Kid : ;P

Now, can anyone guess which one is the 'over-stated'?

Good luck!

So this is what 'tagging' all about...

Tagged by a little sister.

Name the latest book you bought?
smyth and hogan: criminal Law (showing off...boring2)

What is your fullname?
Nazirah Abd Rahim

Name the person you want to meet in real life or the first time?
Lord Denning

Christina or Britney?
Christina

Do you do your own laundry?
Indeed

The most exciting place you wanna go?
House of Lords

Hugs or kisses?
Kisses

8 things I am passionate about?
- family values
- good friends
- career
- little cousins
- kids in general
- cooking with love
- theatres
- tennis

8 things you say too often?
- hi, this is naz rahim from Cyril Sweett…
- you...you..
- ammmaaaaaaa.....
- things like that
- darn!
- owh sheeeshhh!
- right....
- u happy...i'm happy

8 books I've read recently?
- thanks for the memories
- a thousand splendid sun
- criminal law
- contract law
- constitutional law
- irish legal system
- good legal writing
- argos catalouge

8 songs I could listen to over and over again?
- knife; rockwell
- shower me with your love; bad english
- between the lines; sarah barailles
- masterpiece; atlantic star
- just tell me you love me; england dan & john ford coley
- ocean deap; cliff richard
- that's what friends are for; dionne warick
- until the time is through; 5ive

8 things I learned last year?
- cooking
- the clock is cut short by 1 hour during winter
- paying 42% tax is extremely frustrating
- theatres can be cheap and not formal
- ‘mat sallehs’ are same as other sapiens…equally smart and dumb
- 'great' career is not everything....
- read map
- stay calm and don't panic

Tag 8 people
- anak
- anak bebeh
- ms anak
- madihah
- mama 'nak'
- athirah
- didi dearie
- cik ezlin

HOOYA!

Self-pity...

"I never saw a wild thing
sorry for itself.
A small bird will drop frozen dead from a bough
without ever having felt sorry for itself.."

by David Herbert Lawrence

Alas, HOOYA Naz!

Take 5...

Something to joke about despite of the recession's stigma...

of missing and me....tribute to Anak

Quoted from dearest little cousin latest blog entry (http://strange-me.blogspot.com/)....

"I miss the cerita hantu sessions with my cousins (plus the geli-geli or cari rambut gatal sessions with Kakna bebeh.Ingat tak Kakna? Bila nak balik? Tetiba je. he he). Especially the one that we had during EID whilst snugging in our makeshift bed at Tok's place. That is something, that sadly, might not happen again..."



Anak, did you realised that we actually starting to miss all of these once we no longer get hold of them? We should have cherish more when we still have the chance right? Those days when things were smaller and simpler...

Deja vu..

The train from Dun Laoghaire (not ‘dun loRRy’ as a little sister used to pronounce it) back to the city centre was reasonably packed with locals and foreign faces (look who’s talking). Both hands are still feeling numb due to the sudden urge of coldness while I was making my way up; exploring the harbour in the winter darkness. Snapping few good pictures seems like a fruitless venture as I am still struggling to understand how a decent digital camera works under the night sky.



That Saturday evening, the quiet Dun Laoghaire was beaming with colourful lights and massive flow of sapiens. I was overwhelmed with the festive sensation but at the same time, alienated from the unfamiliar crowd. I was here last year though, same blunt Irish winter (just without the friendly showers) and for the same reason. The only lacking was being here all by my-self without the company of the same friendly and ‘misunderstood’ faces. Quoted from a dear ‘double alphabet’ partner in crime; “those innocent times when there were no rush"

.........................those 'very' innocent faces in 2015....................



There goes the changing season.....

Goes the changing people...

Nevertheless, happy weekend naz...